i will keep on waiting. and sorry i cant fullfil my promise to live longer than you.

i never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you (For you)
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

please legs dont give up on me now!!! dam it!!!

my world stirred up by your words

the forgotten day of ours

nothing ever goes well right now. before was my throat which till now still feel pain. and now my both knee. overstress my both knee everytime play basketball or when training at gym. and the pain never gone till now. dam it. even want to stand up also difficult. mayb must let go basketballing. my only hope in life also going furthur. my only hobby. God please forgive me for destroying this body You gave me. i won quit basketball even if i will go cripple!!!

life is short. time move too fast. for some, life is shorter and time move faster.

smoke too much now pay the price

still cant eat that well till today ever since fall sick. my throat is killing me and still keep on cough for no reason. mayb should follow what the doc say. go for check up and shall see how. but honestly scare to get news i dun wish to hear.

jika aku masih ada waktu hanya satu permintaanku. mau melihat wajah mu untuk yang terakhir kalinya. tetapi berat rasa hati ini untuk menemuimu. semua yang dapat kuberikan hanyalah kesedihan. tetesan air matamu yang tak ingin kulihat. air matamu itu yang membuatku meninggalkanmu. yang membebani hidupku. yang memenjarakan jiwaku. sulit bagiku untuk melupakanmu. jejak kakimu yang telah terukir di dalam hati ini sudah tidak dapat dihapus. sewaktu aku meninggalkanmu, ku sangka kau kan bahagia. tetapi tidak. ingin rasa hati ini untuk memanggil mu. memanggil nama mu. memeluk diri mu walaupun sekejab. tetapi rasa takut menyelubungi seluruh hatiku. tidak sanggup melawan tidak ada alasan untuk melawan. kerap memandangi dan mendatangi tempat yang selalu kita datangi. hanya demi untuk melihat mu. mungkin sudah takdir ku untuk kehilangan dirimu. hanya ingin kau tahu, seberat apapun hidup mu, aku selalu mendoakan mu. selalu menunggu dirimu. untuk kembali kedalam hidupku. andai saja kau mengerti arti semua ini. hanya satu yang ku harapkan dari mu. hidup dengan bahagia sayangku. api dalam hidup ini masih menyala karena janjiku kepadamu. janji yang kali ini aku bersumpah untuk aku gengam sampai akhir hidupku. aku mencintaimu seumur hidupku walaupun kau tak mencintaiku lagi.

love is never lost. it just wait to be discovered by someone who knoe how to love.

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

if there is regret in my life. i regret nv keep u by my side. i nv regret knowing you.

took mc today. my body feeling so sick that even wan to sleep is very difficult. and just hoping tonight the fever won go up. cuz got the feeling it will. but luckily my pig cushion companion is there. can help to fall sleep also. dunno y it feel so warm today. feel like the one who give it to me. the warm and comfort. time to get back to sleep and rest.

last sem result out. overall performance is so so just barely pass. which is good since i thought i will fail and also my failing rate is very high. but managed to pass. going to register for ACCA soon also. will see when they going to open the registration. fill my time with everything i can find to do. work and study. a no life person. sickening but must accept the truth. lifeless.

emo song

sometimes i just too heck care about everything around me. thus bring me to this state. i dont know how to appreciate everything i have till i lost it. mayb this is human nature. if only i can be more sensible maybe will never happen this way. can we turn back the time? if can maybe we will never end up like this. all maybe and if but in reality can it really happen. all i have gain, all my achivement means nothing without someone to share it with. nothing i can do. nothing i can hope. all hopes have been broken. all i can do is pray no matter where you are and what you do, there will be my angel watching over you. and i will continue to dreamt of you.

went for another surprise meeting again today. still discuss about the same topic. and to my surprise my supervisor told me the man that came is our dep VP which mean our big boss. so shock since he doest have the look but he has the attitude. the way he speaks and think, everything. no wonder he speak in such authority tone when saw him during our first meeting. now i noe how it feel to work under stress. and must expect more work coming soon on monday. like the way they work and etc. best of all is my luck to get a good supervisor. but no luck in my other part of life. i hate september. emo month...

went to my very first meeting with the supervisors. there are 3 supervisors that supposed to attend the meeting but oni 2 that came. very nervous especially haven done my work for the presentation. and also dun wan to bring problem for my attachment supervisor. so end up doing my work till 1 pm meeting and only go for 10 mins break. and manage to finish all by 4. shagged n tired some more slight cold and flu. was so nervous i end up posting wrong file into the server. damn... then must rush back to office and post it again. one thing i learn is that although all of those bossess speak softly and gentle but their words carry a heavy weight on you. wish in future i can speak like them. so cool!!! must learn as much as i can while i am working there.

"so near but yet so far"

first week of attachment passed. overall the work there is nice. good environment and the people there also nice. and my work currently just doing some admin stuff. although only admin work but learn lot things there, which you cant learn from sch. hopefully they wan to employed me in future after my graduation. 6 months to go. and for my pr. well work harder from now on.

dear GOD please guide me. i need your guidance desperately. and keep on protecting and keep her warm for enternity. i surrender all to YOUR ALMIGHTY will. AMEN.

i have enough bad news around me and coming my way. i had enough of it please, GOD let everything goes well from now on. MOTHER MARRY please bless us all and all around me. dear JESUS CHRIST i beg you save me from this torment, this unworthy child. AMEN.

feel like i have been drifting around. without aim nor goal nor motivation. why is it become worse with each passing days. how to pick up all the pieces? i still cant find the ans. will you come back? i am not me anymore. dont even knoe who i am or what i have become. i need you more than you think...

working in the IT fair for 3 days now. this sunday is the last day. the working time and overall my job scope fairly easy. but one thing i cant stand is must stand for the entire day till it close and my legs is killing me. but lucky the boss is understanding regarding break. smoking break is a must to boost ur mental to fight the tiredness from your leg. and monday i am starting my attachment. lucky attached to same company as my classmate or else gonna be very lonely. and the location is best very near my house lol. but still dont know what is my job scope is.