went to nbl lib, but so many ppl there. can't find any space to do my work. end up walking around with my buds around city area. then we stop by a small church there. went in and pray to GOD. got a homey feeling for me. i realised it been quite long since i went to a church.

on my way home saw some kids with their parents. they look so happy haha. nice to have a perfect family. miss the time when i still have mine. family is like a home where i can go home to but now it's gone. thought i found one here but she left haha. when i start thinking about past, inside me start to cry. before i realised it my tears came out again. i promised her i won cry anymore but it hard to do so. i such a loser and failure. when my family need me most i not there. when my sis need her big bro to protect her i not there. when my mum need her son to protect her i not there. if only i never came to this stupid country i still have a home to go to. when i thought i find my new home she also left me. this lone feeling getting more and more irritating.