finally fixed my laptop. as i have guessed my OS crashed. looks like there is too much stuffs inside my hard disk. need to remove some just like in my life. i need to start to remove some ugly thoughts from my mind. get a good scolding from my friend last night. well he is right i really need to start thinking about where i am going to from now on. keep on going like this is not the best solution. if it keep on going like this i only going to harm myself more. there is always first time in everything. time for me to take the initiative, dare to take the first step in mylife. looks like i still need more time to deal with all my problems and gathering all my broken pieces. feels so tired...tired saying sorries , tired of regreting, tired of all. when can i break free from my own jail? maybe it will be the time i leave this world.

TIRED....................

If what had written for me is the best for you,
I will make you to be my most beautiful memories.
But it is impossible for me to erase your foot's step,
as it had embedded in my life.
As long my heart still beating,
I will always remember you as my true love.