sometimes i just too heck care about everything around me. thus bring me to this state. i dont know how to appreciate everything i have till i lost it. mayb this is human nature. if only i can be more sensible maybe will never happen this way. can we turn back the time? if can maybe we will never end up like this. all maybe and if but in reality can it really happen. all i have gain, all my achivement means nothing without someone to share it with. nothing i can do. nothing i can hope. all hopes have been broken. all i can do is pray no matter where you are and what you do, there will be my angel watching over you. and i will continue to dreamt of you.