heavy resposibility. too much expectation from my family. they pinned all their hopes on me. this heavy weight i carry on my shoulder. i getting tired. when can i have my rest? when can i retire? when can i have my own space? when can i be myself? i have been a great cheater all this time. when can i show my trueself? how i longed for the home i will never find. the home i will never have. the home i will never feel. the home that is moving away from my grips. the invisible home i will never able to see. home that is gone from me.