what would you do if you get chased out from your home? no where to go. homeless and suddenly missing the one who was always hold dear to you. missing the warm you longing to and reach your break down point where you see living life no longer have any meaning. and in that moment of despair one person come to your mind. the one you longed deep inside you. and only because of that person you continue on with a little light in your heart. even if that person doesnt feel the same, you still on hoping for it. slowly you will feel so tired. so tired till it rejects all logic. life or death have no difference to you. you worse nightmare keep on coming back. as if life itself never allow you to forget about the one you love most. it keep on coming and keep on coming till you unable to sense anything around you. and what you miss most is the imposible. and still you continue your life as normal. keep on smiling. but crying inside. crying like there is no tomorrow. tears that you thought have stopped, still flowing through in your heart, your vein, your whole body. a never end winter. and there is nothing you wish more than death to end all sorrow. but still you live on cuz that one person smile. a smile in your memory. a beautiful memory where you keep on living in. why do you keep on fooling yourself?

cuz love is to make us look like fool. as love it defy any logics and senses which make you go haywire. i still love that person.